Limelight
Issue 5: December 2003

Jonathan Asser | Hamish Ironside | Sally Read | Matthew Welton


HAMISH IRONSIDE


The New House

It took a good year after moving in
to the new house before they finally
tackled the garden, one weekend
following a month of escalating
boredom and bickering. So they hired a skip,
borrowed a scythe and a strimmer, and soon
the nettles, thistles, bindweed and ragwort
were obliterated, revealing the earth
speckled with bricks and half-bricks.
They shuffled through the stubble, picking
out each brick, along with tiny
plastic guns, the torn skirts
of dolls, Matchbox Ferraris and Minis.

But before they could dig out the deepest roots,
level it, lay down grass seed, buy
a mower, she'd got a better job
which took her to Bristol Monday to Friday,
and when he was home he began on the bottled
beer and struggled to get the crossword
three-quarters done. All the while,
the nettles were coming back taller than ever
while bindweed spiralled and strangled, unseen.
But what they couldn't understand
was how the bricks got strewn, again.


The Cough

He lights a jaunty cigarette.
She coughs demurely. In his hand
a secret lies. 'I thought you'd forget.'
The reply: 'how could I?' Their kiss is quicksand.

Still it's not right: the cough was off.
The director cusses, sotto voce.
People scurry off to trailers.
Yoga, blow jobs, chess, cocaine.

No one imagines that all we get
is not the life we are sure exists
somewhere soon, but these diversions.
We wait for ourselves in the grubby trailer.


Ao Ta Pan Yai

We'd smoothe the jolts of the dirt-track ruts with a beer
already tepid, pay the man up front
to cut across the island, briskly hot
the sun on the neck, race to reach our hut,
open all the hatches, check we're not
in eyeshot, shake the sheet out, furl the net,
and tumble, laugh, your stomach, breast thigh cunt —
and then this sound of the waves, if you were here.

I run in the day, barefoot, blistered, and run
until I know by skin alone this beach,
mapped by its grades of sand and shingle. The sun
blushes. I eat, write, drink, till, pissed,
I watch the others, alone, together, each
alive to what they'll be, not what they've missed.



Hamish Ironside co-edited the Anvil New Poets 3 anthology and is currently working on his first collection.